Reverse Peter Pan

In the first place there
Was a place where
I went as a child who
Never grew up

But that wasn’t the problem
See
I always wanted to be an adult
Like a reverse Peter Pan
The pirates seemed to have
More

While most people bask in
The ignorance we call
Innocence of childhood
Where people lie because they
Are too weak to tell the truth
That was never my fairy dust
I wanted dirt and grime and rust
And real
I wanted to feel
I wanted able to hold space and get
My voice heard

As a child it was not possible
My mother was on a
Mission with us as the tools
To be a beacon of judaism
In a place that just wanted
Me to just shut up
They simply closed their ears

Their hearts offered no solace
So I learned to be ok in silence
Learned to hold space in gaze
But that was a lonely place
In that face a big fella by the name of Donny
Presented his dick to a young me

In exchange for friendship
No just the tip
But that was a long time ago

Now
I thank all I know
That I grew up
Because now
People listen