In-Visible

Invisible memories pass as mind loses focus on what’s right there

Yet eyes continue to stare
Continue to see
Continue to reflect

Recollect on the time when I was a boy and knew
The monkey I carried kept me company but it’s weight was difficult to dance with

I didn’t dance much as a child

I’m learning now
The monkey protested so I let him off
He can find someones else to keep company
Memories of a time when

I never felt innocent

Despite all the lies to keep me that way
The invisible strands that hold together so many’s sanity

Cursed to be un-gullible, un-bending

only truth would do

Eyes cast down
Told time and again this pursuit, this dream, is too great a feat

“I lied for your own good!”
Lied to yourself
I never believed
Was never received
Didn’t drink the cool-aid

Instead, drowned sorrows in invisible memories of a time when things were different

When men were men and women were

Other

When you worked for a living and nobody cried
When everyone knew that white was pure and who gives a fuck about what you want to be called
You know
The good old days
When killing was ok as long as they didn’t look like you
How dare you tell me I should self reflect instead of finding someone else to blame
Are you saying this is my fault!?

Visible anger bubbles and boils
Easier than dealing with guilt
Frightened children who never learned the hard lessons of compassion

Get real
Your head is in the clouds and there’s no time to daydream when there’s work to be done
No time to play
No time for fun
Math’s what you need
Along with a head full of unpleasant memories

It’s the natural order

That we built

It’s us and them
We must defend!
From whom?
Naught but us and us

Invisible lines

The greatest lie of all
Zero sum as they laugh all the way to the bank with more zeros than they need
The invisible sickness of greed

It’s a double patty with a side of never-ending need and it's delicious
Is this what it means to succeed?!

Nay
My mind is mine own
Invisible boyhood dreams and memories
I allow myself to be
A visible man